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Coffee at the ready! Much happier today as I now have a computer, and the important things are set up.

I sit at my writing desk thinking, wondering about my life. I am thinking of what is happening in the world. Now that I am older I feel that a lot of my time has been spent in thought. Like the rest of the world I have tried to understand the experiences I have gone through. At this point in life, I realize several conclusions about thinking about all I have thought about.

During our life cycle we live ages and stages which cycle, conclusions are made. I refer to this as having a truest reality. It’s the best information I have managed to extract. So, all that info is tucked away in files in my mind. The mind then predicts what we want, and it calls up all these choices to draw upon. We then chose what fits the present time being the best.

When the mind calls up information it recalls the whole thing! How we felt, even smells can be remembered. This unique feature we have is amazing. However, we are the ones in charge of what information we use. As humans we are to be accountable for our words and actions. What applies as being something accountable to applies to us, and it also applies for other humans.

As human beings we have expectations which are age old expectations. How we carry ourselves is important! The important basics are being trustworthy, having respect, and showing respect for one another. We expect to trust in each other. We expect that if we carry ourselves well, other should too! If you want someone to love or like who you are you act according to these aspects of self because you have made these attributes a part of who you are. We expect compassion for ourselves and there for need to be compassionate towards others. There are so many other expectations that are applicable that can be placed in these sentences.

One of the hardest things to overcome is anger, and hurt. There are two kinds of hurt. One is when you tell about why you feel hurt immediately when something happens. The other kind is when you keep the hurt alive for a long time, years and years. The hurt has been given importance. We want to feel justified because we are hurt so deeply. The pain is so great! However, there comes a point where we must face what hurts us so greatly. It does help if you can make conclusions about the hurt. However, there are times we can not get to a true reality of the cause of this great hurt.

We don’t like feeling hurt, and we don’t know how to move past it. That’s what it feels like. I have friends whose son was murdered, made to look like suicide. That has been so tragic for them. Very hard to move on from. It is unthinkable. Yet there is life to live ahead of them. Their loss is very different from my own loss four years ago when Thomas died. War kills many people on all sides, and that is as unthinkable as people killing one another.

How to stop the hurt, pain and suffering. It requires finding a way forward for the sake of the world we live in, and for humanity itself. Just everyone stop! Stop! Stop! And ask what is better? What has happened, has happened. But this is bigger than just me and my family! We all want safety, love, food in our bellies. We want jobs that work for us. As smart as we may be we are not finding common bonds.

Well, life is not what I wish it to be, and I am not alone in this.

PJ Nunes 3/28/2025