Anisette Studio

Good morning! In a matter of days, its 2026! The new year! So, what will happen this year? 2025 has ended with a big clatter! But I am sane and whole! There are many thoughts coming out of 2025.

I have my independence back, a new home! I am back where family and friends are! I am making new and old connections! My home is cozy and has a great feel even with all the moving boxes around me! LOL! Thanks to a lot of help its all here. The last remnants of life with Thomas, my studio and keepsakes, photos, etc. These things have been condensed down to what there is. I got rid of a lot when sold my house. A natural part of the process. Over time you do let go of more, and this simplifies things. I am ready to do more purging, but such matters are private and for each person to do. LOL now that I have grouped books together here! I do think it won’t be so easy to find new homes for many. I just need to sort them out!

I like this space. I am reminded of a loft apartment I visited when going to school where everything blends together and where the things of importance take precedence. Such things find their place first and then the BOHO will just have to happen around them.

I have missed my quiet space. I miss Thomas. A quiet space is impotent to the artist and writer. Here I can follow through with the promises Imade myself when Thomas died. I can return to my professional self, and my personal self. I control my future again. You lose this when you live with others, family or friends. And they lose things too. Their own time to do as they want or need. That’s just how it is. But for those who work it out, it takes a unique quality in the people to understand the needs of one another. I have lived with others since a child. It’s not what I need now. I can’t pull off and live with loved ones. My experience makes me think of several things. Of being the professional artist and writer. All the projects that require serious efforts. In the past things came to a holt. Such as when Thomas died and I moved. I don’t have years ahead and best make use of the ones afforded to me. I have worked hard to get to the point I am with projects, now to pull it off. There is no time to buy into thoughts, emotional happenings, and what others do or don’t do. Being human takes you into other directions. However, finding ones own balance is necessary for one’s own happiness.

2026? I can see myself wrapping up old projects and pulling off new projects like an art collaboration with two fellow artists Alice M Edwards and Julia Bake-Wait. The collaboration requires research on my part, doing the artwork that will be required to express our connection to the earth. The fact that there is a conscious connection. All things living thrive due to being conscious. Think on this! Akk things become out of conscious awareness, and we are connected to one another and this planet. That is a lot to consider, and to express. Each of us comes at it from different angles that merge. I look forward to meetings as the project unfolds.

I think of what it takes to be the artist. Theres a lot to it, and to be able to pull it off. Essentially you create a product and sell it. You are the entrepreneur. It means courting people, by letting them know what you have. It’s your old-time medicine show! And your elixir is the best in town! LOL! It is ambition to help others through your work. Its personal. Art facilitates saying what others cannot or wish to express. Its therapeutic, a puzzle to be solved. Art, writing, music, poetry____ has a long history of changing the world through how and what it uses to impact daily life! It’s a serious endeavor. You cannot wait for others to understand and support your work. It will get you nowhere. Time moves to fast, and always there is a lack of it. At best you make the time work so there is balance with all things. A time to work, and that time given to you to build on relationships, to see the world in new ways___ Boil down to “How to have your cake___ and eat it too!” The balancing act of living.

Since a child I have asked myself “Who am I? Who do I want to become? How can I help other people have good lives? My influences came from books more than tv. I observed people and understood what one does at the point of each age and stage. The phase it’s all a learning curve feels right to me. The older you get the more you realize how little you know and how much more there is to know. You also understand you’re not responsible for the words and actions of others, your own responsibilities are quite enough to winnow down by the complexity of being human. You understand how thoughts bring you into trouble because the mind predicts and brings up things from the past out of the blue. Triggers. I am so tired of triggers. I want happiness. And to have family and friends who love me in my world. Your relationships with family and friends are important. You choose from the best of these for happy times. An artist life is not all about the work they do, and this is true if you write or do any of the arts. No matter what you do for work. We need others in our lives. Humans are complex. As complex as it all is, balance is what keeps it from being too much. No one can do everything or be everything to all other people. The self has to be taken care of. And what is good and right for yourself, is also good and right for all other people. In this there is balance, and allowances made. We don’t have to like or love what others do. It is hard sometimes because we find it to understand what motivates others. Especially when you feel they should know you. Letting go and being present is what is needed and often is a bumpy ride. Its that old learning curve thing. And knowing yourself, trusting in yourself and believing in who you are, this is your mainstay. We might like it if others understood us, and truly heard us but not everyone communicates well. Nor can we convey well the things we need to. The circumstances may not allow. Well that sums up the thoughts from 2025. Now on to 2026!