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Another good morning to you! May all be well in your life! This morning, I am thinking of: “To everything, there is a season____” And so there is. And I think, what do I do with this season? Where am I at? I think, “In this moment where am I at, moments depend on thoughts, so I think in one more moment of time. Time, I think____ humans are the only ones who measure life by time spent. Do I have to measure my time? How do I stop measuring my days thru the use of a clock. Twenty-four hours never seems enough. We measure everything we do and try to squeeze it into a day only to learn we can do just so many things in one day. The really profound question is “How can I live differently by not measuring time so closely that I am anxious about what I accomplish. Because I question, no, my mind questions how significant I am. It predicts from my pros and cons as if it is picking flowers from this wild and random garden. A garden I thought I had weeded yet there is this old seed hidden from myself. The mind can pull it up any time. Now a days I have to laugh at this as it reminds me what I do, what my mind does by predicting what I might want to think; this is true for everyone else. And I ask is this why some people see to be so negative? That they call up past thought into the present and get stuck in a loop? This kind of loop wastes the time we have, repeatedly. I want to get off this treadmill, this propaganda I sell myself.

The only way out seems to be actively present each day, each hour and minute of the day. It means not going there and changing the subject on the self. Not worrying the day by measuring it by expecting so much of myself. Don’t feel anxious about taking time for the self. Balance the self by not trying to understand every dam thought that floats up. Its something that has been triggered, it is a thought, but do I really want to go there? Most times no.

Sometimes when I wake up my brain tells me I feel angry, sad, disappointed. I find my self asking why? Then, how do I get past these feelings? Why has the mind predicted them in the first place? Asking questions however starts the old pro and con list of possibilities going. Because something is possible does not make it be the real reason. We come close, and its a guess-to-mate. The only successful way to keep my mind from rattling around the pros and cons is to begin doing something that moves me forward. That makes me feel good and is positive. Things do not do themselves. Things pile up and rather than have these things irritate me because they have piled up. It seems the thing to do is JUST DO IT! Don’t procrastinate and give the mind a reason to over thing what you need. Breaking the habitual cycles by giving the brain new things to file away has made my life happier. I am happier with myself. The madness of the world at this time_____ feels beyond all of us. What we can do is take care of ourselves, be in charge of the home front. Help make change where we can. Find balance, solid ground.

Well, best wishes! Pejj