Anisette Studio

Pejj Nunes Muddy Brook Studios 2/4/2024

The view from my deck.

I am going to love sitting out here! I do think I want some shade. Good morning! Coffee at the right, and it is no longer morning at 12:15. Close enough? Maybe. Today there were two Nuthatch.

It is a sunny Sunday. I love sun coming through my windows and the sliding glass doors. I wait for sunshine, and many other things. And as I wait? I think on new things as possibilities.

“The Stars come nightly to the sky, the tidal wave unto the sea; nor time nor space, nor deep, nor high, can keep my own away from me.” John Burroughs.

Whatever we claim as ours is indeed ours, as long as we know to let it go when we must, and only with hope may it return. There are things however that do not return, and so we have these things as memories. Memories are made.

Another view from the deck.

“Times change, and we with time___” Change is constant so it is said, how true of time. I think of how I have evolved as a person, how time and experience has change me, and my life. I think of all the thinking I have done to make the conclusions I have. Not all of them perfect or right conclusions. I think of what we file away as our truest realities. How can it all be true when not all of it is the truest reality but ever-changing thoughts? Humans evolve, we are meant to evolve and change. Somehow, we think we are the same, we perhaps are similar rather than the same. But we are not the same each day nor forever. One thought can impact the mind and forever change it. We are influenced, and need to decide which direction we wish to go in. We are triggered by what happens and there we are! Decisions must be made, and so the mind predicts. The thing is do we just go with the flow or say “No! Mind, I want to be different in this moment of time! I want to see where this train of thought takes me. I do not want to go with old thoughts that just bring me back to this bench where I ruminate on the same old thing.” One thought leads to another, and it can be off to the races. We do not have to race.

Beyond the deck, just a bit.

Here is another thought. From Joyce Hilfer’s book Pathways. “Habit is something we repeat and repeat with little or no thought. We are lucky if it is a good habit, being the sort of persons, we sometimes become without really trying, we tend more towards habits we’d be better not to cultivate.” I do think habits keep us in certain modes, and we do think habits as being something hard to break. A belief? Is it a good belief? Habits are a form of self-talk however, and then there is self-belief. The older I have become I think, regarding the word habit. “Who is in charge here?” Having a habit does not feel like one is in charge, that it is the habit that is in charge instead. Since we talk of breaking habits. Habits fall back to the mind predicting what we want. It calls up the first things we have done, or that we have gone with before. Once you realize this, I think it becomes easier to put new thoughts into place so the mind will use them instead. I don’t like feeling predictable. I like making up my own mind, and I am no longer willing to let my mind choose ideas as a pro and con list. When it comes to creating such list to work from, we know our answers already and go with the best answers. It does not seem that, that is a very good way to go as it leads one in a circle. I think doing new things with purpose makes for a more interesting life!

At nearly 68 years old, and now single, why not! I want to discover a new me!

Best wishes! Pejj Nunes.