Anisette Studio

From Muddy Brook Studio 1/11/2024

Hard to believe I am 68 next birthday! Don’t feel 68! I think the things is not to worry about how old you are. You do think about time, and how fast it goes by. I think I was 65 when this was taken. Photos help people connect with you, so I don’t mind sharing me. I recall being younger and stopping to look in a mirror wondering if I looked ok. Something happens with this as you age. At first when you get grey hair you wonder who is that person looking back at me when I look into the mirror. Now, a new level of awareness. I think I have adjusted to the fact it’s really me, no longer a blonde woman. No longer “younger”.

The thing is we are still working on who we are, and who we might become. And looking in a mirror give us some information but there is much more to who we are than how we look. the shape of our bodies. Our health! All to be worked on.

I do not feel any different than when I was younger when it comes to many things, yet wisdom does come with aging. I recall the adults saying, “Oh! To be young and know what I know now!” LOL, yes, I identify with that!

I think we need to accept and like who we are at each age and stage. The one thing I liked about being a couple was that Thomas and I had meta morphed together. I can’t imagine what it would be like to start a new relationship. I think having friends is the way to go. I just want to be myself at this point, a first for me as I have been married more than single. I want what I have, and I want to make decisions for myself. Thomas was wonderful as a partner so there are no negatives there. He was the love of my life. But I do think there needs to be a time for me being the artist and writer.

The question always seems to be, “What do I want to do with my life?” And then it is a matter of having stick-to-itiveness. Knowing as my business coach once said that if I am persistent, then things will avalanche. To start with at least one thing, four is great, that in the mix of whatever I do I need to take care of the self by getting proper rest and physical exercise, proper diet. All the things we are to do to be healthy. The point being there is indeed time to be creative and do these things. I have been too sedentary in my past, as creating art and writing require sitting. Moving my problem. Simply doing a chore is moving, so I do this as breaks. I walk outside. I am someone who needs to have alone time, but it is important to experience life, therefore other people regularly. Without having experiences there is no new information, there is less fun in life. I spend years just working, and then I was in the role of a caregiver two times. Thomas lovely folks, and then Thomas. I am glad I step up and helped them in their last days. It was a rich, and not so easy experience. It was the two of us with Tom’s folks. But with Thomas just me. I did not realize the impact of being a caregiver has. Your suddenly at a point where it is just you to take care of now. And so, I am! I know I am not the only one who has had this experience and so I write about it to give up my thoughts that these thoughts may be useful to someone else. I like to read or hear what others thing, as it helps me examine my own thoughts, and affirms I am after all doing ok! Sometimes someone else will frame something in a more precise way. Blogs are nice, they are short, and on many topics. You can tell about what your interest are, and what you do.

Best wishes and have a super day! Get in the drivers seat even if you don’t go far this day.